A Journey from Self Deprecation to Self-Confidence!
I was always the one who didn’t value herself. I never thought that I could do anything. Like everyone else, my dreams were also quite big but due to the nature of not giving value and importance to myself, I was always in great stress trying to figure out how to manage things in life.
I knew that I was going to make my way through this phase. I was sure that one day I would gain self-confidence but I don’t know-how? I always tried to take baby steps but nothing worked for me. I always got disheartened from other people’s points of view and then never tried again. I almost lose all hope in me.
I will not exaggerate here Amal Academy has given me some really amazing friends. Who listens to me, who understands me and genuinely feels happy for me even on my little progress.
In the very first Learning group Circle, I have come to know about two very amazing and extremely talented human beings one is Shahzaib, and the other is Hamza both of them are supremely talented.
I would love to mention here that I still remember in my very first interaction with Hamza and Shahzaib which was over a WhatsApp call. I was very shy about how to communicate with these young boys but they have made me so comfortable that we talked for so long. We came to know each other by then.
I have never thought that I can take any kind of responsibility but Shahzaib again has pushed me out of my comfort zone and given me the responsibility to handle and to give directions to everyone regarding 14 August Collaborative video making.
I told him that I wouldn’t be able to do it. But he insisted me so then I mustered up my courage and I took the responsibility and maybe this task might be easy for somebody else but for me, It was one of the initial baby steps towards the journey of being self-confident so it was quite tough for me.
Then afterward I always tried to be the leader of my learning group circles because a leader is the one who experiences a lot of the things at a time which I realized after taking initiative previously He/she is the one that manages everyone.
And then finally for the mega project, we all have done voting, and here again, I won and became the leader of our “Mega Project Circle” and this journey particularly of managing the mega project was completely insane. I was always and still am over the toes managing a lot of stuff at a time from making the problem statement to scheduling meetings to Final implementation.
This was a journey that was filled with a lot of different kinds of experiences. I guess without being the leader and taking responsibility for the first time for the video developing task I can never realize the thing that yes I also can manage things beautifully I can be a leader I can also take responsibility. I always thought the opposite in my life that I am not good at anything. But these experiences with Amal have led me to self realization.
These memories of Amal will always remain with me. I came to know more about my strengths through this platform and the super amazing fellows that I have interacted with.
I can’t miss her name here. Her name is Ayesha. She is one of the sweetest people that I have ever met in my life. The way she speaks is truly amazing. I always counted on her Whenever I needed any kind of help Because I knew that she would never say no to me and always respond to me.
The Amal journey was altogether really special for me but a few moments were close to my heart one of them is a donation drive for the great Edhi Shab.
The satisfaction that came after submitting all the donations by hand for the needy people can’t be explained in words. That feeling was out of this world!
I will never forget these 3 months that I have spent with Amal. These were truly one of the closest times of life.
As it is rightly said; Memories are timeless treasures of the heart!
